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| Hello, it's me
I've thought about us for a long, long time
Maybe I think too much but something's wrong
There's something here that doesn't last too long
Maybe I shouldn't think of you as mine
Seeing you
Or seeing anything as much as I do you
I take for granted that you're always there
I take for granted that you just don't care
Sometimes I can't help seeing all the way through
It's important to me
That you know you are free
'Cause I never want to make you change for me
Think of me
You know that I'd be with you if I could
I'll come around to see you once in a while
Or if I ever need a reason to smile
And spend the night if you think I should
It's important to me
That you know you are free
'Cause I never want to make you change for me
Think of me
You know that I'd be with you if I could
I'll come around to see you once in a while
Or if I ever need a reason to smile
And spend the night if you think I should
Think of me...
Think of me...
Think of me
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| they say you're attitude determines your lattitude, well
i'm high as a mutha fucka
fly as a mutha fucka. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| So last night I thought would be like an ordinary night. I got home from school around 5:00 because I stayed later with Russ so I could possibly get done some more of my Biology test. I got home, ate some dinner, chatted it up on the internet because we finally got that bad boy working, and then around 7:30 I went with my dad to drop off my two brothers at my brother Billy's basketball game and then he took me to my mom's work to pick her car up. I needed to borrow the car to ride down to lauren's so I could type my Biology test because for some reason microsoft works wasn't working on my computer. lauren didn't even get done work til 8:00 and she wouldn't be at FKD terminal until like 8:30, and that's where i was gonna pick her up from. well since i had time to kill i decided to head down to russ' house to pick my bag of clothes up from the night before when i slept there. he was suppose to come with me to lauren's house so i could type my paper but he got into some trouble and wasn't able to. he gave me 10$ for gas because i was afraid i was going to have to push myself home later on. we kissed and said i love you and then i remember pulling away, saying to myself, 'my God it's fucking pouring'. as i was pulling away i remembered to put my seatbelt on. i was driving down richmond st. and i started going a little fast because, i always drive fast, but when i had some trouble stopping at a measly stop sign i thought, okay, maybe i should slow it down. so i turned off of richmond onto bridge st.
when i was driving down bridge, this mac truck was next to me and i know alls i was worried about was passing him becuase he was taking up some of my lane and i was going into the other lane with oncoming traffice, my car's big too. so as i'm driving to cross under that underpass where you get on the train and where it's the two lanes that are the off ramps for 95, i completely didn't see the red light, i was busy looking at the light behind it that was green, and i kept going, but then i tried slamming the breaks and i started hydroplanning, and then i stopped in the middle of their lane, and they had a green light coming off 95, so i started to go again to get out of their lane so i didn't cause an accident and then i seen out of the corner of my eye, this white car coming off 95, so fast, they were definitely speeding, i just remember screaming and they slammed the passenger side of me, they hit me so hard that the air bag on that side went off and then my car flipped, i remember my head smashing the window next to me, and shattering it. when my car flipped all the windows on my driver's side shattered and i was hanging out of the car by my seatbelt. my legs were pinched in between the dashboard and the steering wheel. my car flipped onto two other cars that were stopped at the red light on the other side. i know i had a concussion because i blacked out when my head hit my window. when i woke up i heard a woman screaming bloody murder and crying going "SHE'S DEAD, WHAT THE FUCK, SHE'S FUCKEN DEAD! OH MY GOD, IT'S A GIRL! SHE'S ALONE? I THINK SHE'S ALONE? OH MY GOD PLEASE SOMEONE HELP HER, SOMEONE FLIP THE CAR BACK OVER" i could hear everyone but i couldn't move. i heard the wheels scretching becuase the car was still on, and the wind sheild whippers were still going crazy. finally i heard a guy yell "SWEETHEART!, IF YOU'RE ALIVE IN THERE, PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU, TURN THE CAR OFF, OR IT'S GOING TO BLOW UP!" thank God i regaind conciousness and i screamed and turned the car off, and then i heard a bunch of guys yelling "cover your head, cover your head!" so i did and they said "WE'RE GOING TO SMASH IN THE BACK WINDOW SO I CAN CLIMB IN AND CARRY YOU OUT!" so they did and then some random guy was laying on top of me saying "it's alright sweetheart, the ambulance is on it's way, don't worry, i'm right here with you.." i'm histerical, i couldn't even catch my breath, i was screaming and crying so loud.
then when the ambulance finally got there a paramedic climbed in who knew my mom and said "i got you now, oh my god this seatbelt saved your life, you know if you didn't have this on, you wouldve broke your neck" so then that upset me more, but i think it was because i was just more thankful. so the paramedic asked me if i could climb out of the back but my legs were so badly pinched that i couldn't move anywhere, i was literally hanging upside down from my seatbelt, if i would've took that off i wouldve fell and cracked my head and smashed it in glass. so then the paramedic said he was going to stay with me the whole time in the car because they needed to use the jaws of life to get me out. they smashed in my mom's front window to put a blanket over top of me. and then i heard a saw cutting off my mom's roof. it took they a half hour to get me out of the car. finally when the whole was big enough they picked me up and put me on a stretcher. and put me in the ambulance. my mom's car was completely totaled.
i went to temple, got x-rays, cat scans. but absolutely nothing was wrong with me. i mean my knees are pretty banged up, black& blue and swollen but nothing serious. and thank you God. I can't believe i survived that. i really can't. my grandmom, mom& dad all came to the emergency room and were all histerical crying. my grandmom said "someone up there likes you". and the girl who was in one of the cars that mine flipped on to, said she would say a prayer for me. i was discharged from the hospital that night, but we're being sewed by the white girl who smashed me, and i guess thats understandable, i did slide into their green light by accident. no one was badly hurt. it was on the news this morning, it just said "4 car accident in bridesburg last night". i can't believe this happened to me. i'm just really thankful i'm alive, and that i did use my seatbelt.
PLEASE PLEASE EVERYONE WHEN YOU'RE DRIVING WHERE YOUR SEATBELT AND PAY EXTRA ATTENTION AND GO SLOW WHEN IT'S RAINING/ICY/SNOW. it takes something like this to actually make you change how you drive. it sucks i had to be the example. | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!
YAY i'm 19! eww. i'm getting old.
call/text me and make me happy :) 215-605-9937 | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Your entry is as follows:
Today was really fucking A
I got out of bed because I had to throw up. I'm really sick. I mean REALLY sick.
I feel a bit strange because we've just moved to Idaho and there's a weird smell in the house.
I'm so hardcore. Me and Buzz went to the mall today, and I stole a whole heap of stuff. I got a Good Charlotte CD, a couple of DVDs and some new boots. Buzz got caught, but he fought his way out, and then we stole some lady's car and smashed it into a phone booth.
Last night I had to shave my entire body. Apparently, the lice that I caught from Amanda's friend are really hard to get rid of. I look quite strange with no hair and eyebrows. I'd post pictures, but my webcam is broken.
I want to tell the world that I'm gay.
I am sharpening my knives before I go to work today, because I'm going to cut out Robert's heart and feed it to him for losing my mail.
Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! Here's some photos of my girlfriend in the nude (but don't tell her that I've posted them here - she'll kill me! Har har.)
I want to say thanks to the world for absolutely fucking nothing! You all suck. I feel so alone, no one ever reads this journal, or even comments to let me know that I'm not suffering alone. It's cold here, and I want to die, but I cannot figure out how many of you to take with me when I go.
I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have bipolar disorder, just like my best friend Sally.
You should all do this quiz! It's amazingly accurate. You just put in your name and birthday, and it will tell you you're a moron.
That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this poem I wrote. It's about my friend Robert, who has bipolar disorder. Just like me. And Heidi.
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| hey hey hey
EVERYONE CAN READ THIS ENTRY SO FEEL SPECIAL!
this weekend was the ski trip. and i must say it was a really good time with a few minor glitches, haha.. or major...whatever.. other than that a good time.
on friday i got home from getting my eyebrows waxed and then maria picked me up from my house. we carried all my luggage and my beer out to her car and headed back to her house. we get there and she packed, then we had to pick tara up from bridge& prat terminal cuz she was at cise's house in west philly. we get her and then headed to food basics so we could buy some food for the weekend, we met nicole there, and got a bunch of junk good, basically, haha. nicole went back to her house to pack and tara, maria, and i went to tara's uncle's so she could pack and we could replace the bottle of arbor mist that maria drank the last time we were there. we headed to nicole's to pick her up cuz maria was driving. we got nicole and headed towards the turnpike but we had to meet steph, jenna, and steph's friend shannon at wawa so they could follow us. the ride there was so fucken long& tiring..fucken 3 hours to get there.
we drove in the dark and the two people in the car who could drive were both driving fucken retarded and making me and nicole nervous. haha. we get to the days inn in danville and went in to see fred, so we could get our room keys. fred came running towards us in a towel haha cuz he got out of the pool and said "don't bring your alcohol in yet because theyre going room to room at taking everyone's stuff" so i opened my case and put it in my bag since they can't go through bags. then after we got settled in everyone started showing up. tara maria and nicole made their drinks, and me the BEAST chugged my beers, haha. i got a little tipsy not quite drunk. tara and maria and nicole were TRASHED THOUGH. tara and maria wanted to go swimming in the pool and i wanted to go and see joe so nicole came with me.. in joe's room was all my boys<3 playing cards. paul was video taping, haha. oh yeah ANDDDD WE WENT TO THE MOON!! haha. i figured it out assholes!! nicole left the room crying and whatever for some reason.. and the next thing i know i got into my room and nicole and tara are fist fighting. then maria and nicole started fist fighting. tara went to break maria and nicole up and she got clobbered with a punch and i got so fucken pissed, tara has a fucken egg on her head like WHOA. haha.
nicole had a bloody lip from tara. and then i heard nicole was just coming at everyone, and swinging on everyone. so i left the room because i'm not one who can hit a person i consider a good friend to me. i got back into joe's room and the security gaurd knocked on the door and asked me to come out, i came out, and he asked me what room nicole was in so i said 125, even though we were 119 i didn't wanna get in trouble. so i said why? and he showed me two fucken holes nicole punched in the walls at the hotel. and the owner said both the holes was gonna cost 400$ which was bullshit but whatever. she's paying it, not me. i put nicole back in the room and i went back into joe's room. me and joe were laying on the bed when tara came running down and said to me "heather nicole's talking about maria's dad and maria's histerically crying, can you come down?" so i came running down.. now mind you maria's father is dead and has been for a couple years now. so maria's outside crying, and all the boys are comforting her. i walked in the room and nicole was in tara's face. so i said to nicole 'you need to sit down and shut your mouth because you have no fucken idea what you're talking about' so she came into my face and told me i was trash and that i will always be trash. so i pushed her on the bed and she went to swing on me but missed and then i went to get on top of her and she kicked me in my face.. so that's when tara grabbed her hair and was holding her and i wound the fuck up and hit her 4 times in her face. hard as shit. she had two swollen black eyes, a busted lip, a bloody nose, and my rings scrapped some of the skin off on her forehead. her face was messed up. bird and jack tried to get me off but they were afraid to get hit by me. hahhaahahha. thanks guys.
so she just kept coming at everyone. then finally fred called her dead and her dad drove fucken 3 hours at 2 in the morning to come and get her.. oh well. the rest of the night was alright. i didn't drink much more after that. and i slept in joe's room with the boys. we pushed both the beds together and it was dubb, joe, me, mike, and tom cole. the next day we woke up to ashley in our room laughing and being loud and joe was so mad, haha. he threw the phone at her. then finally me and joe got showered and me maria and tara were gonna go to friendly's to get something to eat but then we heard that all of our 7 rooms were getting kicked out. we had by 5 to get out. so we packed our shit and went to the hotel across the st. haha the red roof inn. so much better except we only had 5 rooms this time. we all smooshed in them. in me tara and maria's room was steve hub, maria and tara on the one bed, mike and tommy d on the other bed. dubb by the bathroom on the floor, jack in between the two bed's, bird smooshed in the crack of of the other bed, and me and joe on the floor next to the door. i got pretty sick, because i got pretty drunk at our game of circle of death. all in all saturday night was the only good night. check out was at 11:00 in the morning and when mike got up his pillow was drenched in blood because he got a nose bleed in the middle of the night, haha me and joe stole the bed when tommy d and mike went to bird's car to get food. when we woke back up everyone was in our room and i showed everyone the pillow and said "SORRY GUYS, I GOT MY PERIOD..." HAHAH. and everyone was like ewwww. we all headed out and some of us went to denny's for breakfast/ lunch.. it was good. joe did the "trout" to everyone as we were sitting down waiting for our table. a table of 16 at that, sheesh. not enough room so we all had to be split up. so the girls got one table.
on the way home it was maria me tara and mike. we blasted good music and sang and tried to keep up with bird and paul's cars but maria makes me nervous and so we went slow. haha. all in all i think the weekend was really good. and here's some pictures....
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a broken smile
or
a broken heart
who would've guessed?
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everything has changed, and everyone has changed. i had so much fun prom night i wish i could go back to that night and see everyone, and how they use to be. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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P.S.
my journal for now on is OH YES.
FRIENDS ONLY.
i can't take the creeps that read it and then swear up and down they know my life
so yeah this is to get rid of some creeps.
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last night was great.
tara came n got me and then we picked maria up and headed to jills house.
we "danced", got some food from wawa. cracked up at how RETARDED jill is.
haha i swore she was getting possessed every couple of minutes.
haha. then i was real tired so everyone went to bed.
maria tried climbing on the couch with me. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
haha i kept pushing her off. so then she asked
me to sleep in jills moms bed with her so i said yeah.
i slept so sound. it was the best sleep of my life.
we woke up around 12:00 and tara me and maria left.
dropped maria off me and tara went for a "ride" hahah.
and then she took me home.
today sucked because i ran, fought with joe, showered.
WOW!
how eventful. BAH BITCHESSSS i don't have school tomorrow! | | comments: 10 comments or Leave a comment |
| JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and
soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive.
Active mind. Hesitating, tends
to delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and
humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.
Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able
to show character. Easily
hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up.
Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom
shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt.
Brand conscious. Executive.
Stubborn.
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you want to know what i realized today,
that i'm a great person, and that i put an impression on everyone
that i know is good. i don't need this ANY of this. i'm better off. i'm a better person.
without you. and just know youre NOT the biggest regret of my life. believe me, i have MANY.
and if you knew the half of them. i'm sure we wouldn't even be friends. i don't want to hate you.
i don't want to be on bad terms. but i guess we have to be. i know you miss me. and i know you miss
that companionship because you can tell other people these things and not me. the one person
who would love to hear it the most. and yeah we did grow up together, and when we changed
as in our personailitys, our style, just everything. we changed together. everything we've ever done
was together. it was you and i always. and i'm sorry for being young and stupid and thinking
it would be you and i till forever. i shouldn't of even thought that. i was setting myself up.
but if you think youre gonna walk all over me. and youre gonna do whatever you want, and think
i'm still gonna be there, well you're wrong. i'm not gonna be there next time. and i'll promise you that.
i love you with all my heart, but you have made some dumb and unthoughtful decisions in your life
and i really feel sorry for you. youre a drunken mess, all the time. don't do that to yourself.
you don't have to drink, you only make yourself look like an ass. well i guess i'm done.
i love you unconditionally, i won't lie. but i'll maybe see you in 4 years. have fun at college,
don't forget me.
i miss you.
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im going out tonight with jaybirddddd
and i hate joe
and i want to kill joe, HA WHATS NEW
we're drinking because we're fucken awesome, emm...
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i'm drinking water.. mmmm
and listening to my brothers "KEEPIN' IT GANGSTA" file of music
it's new and improved
and ludacris is the man | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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well well well today i didn't have any classes but yet my mother likes to WAKE ME UP EARLY. ARGH! i'll kill er'! so she comes in my room at 11:00 and yells "IF YOU WANNA GO THRIFT STORE SHOPPING THE BUS IS LEAVING NOW!! t00t t00t" haha WONDERFUL. so i got up threw some sweats on and a baseball shirt tie dye socks YES! and my pony jacket. we headed to rising sun where i got 2 shirts! yep! thats it, two shirts. i was highly dissapointed. so then i convinced my mom to go down to K&A we parked in walgreens and went into the village thrift. they had NOTHING. WTF x 20975903275 i can't believe this, i have no luck anymore. IF ANYONE KNOWS OF ANY GOOD THRIFT STORES THAT ACTUALLY HAVE SOME BOYS T SHIRTS LET ME KNOW!
we left there and headed to old navy. where i got a cute pink sweater with a pink flower on it, an off the shoulder aqua long sleeve dress shirt, a see through brown and pink tank top, and the cutest wallet EVER. it's metallic pink and inside is all black with different colored polka dots, it's big too. I LOVE IT. and i love my mom. we left there and she went to pick some dinner up. and then we headed to the gap. i loved this one purse there but she refused to buy it for me because she said she's not supporting my pocket book fetish anymore, SLUT. so then we walked around to payless where they had the cutest shoes but just in the WORST color, pink. so then we seen the same ones in rainbow, but they didn't have my size. JESUS. finally we came home, ate some dinner just her and i. and then my dad got home and me and my mom were discussing going to H&M but she said no because she was going to the gym tonight. ERRR. i wanted to get some things at H&M too. oh well, next time.
and now here i am. thinking about joe.
but whatever.
mmmmm pickles. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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today i woke up so stuffy. because i slept with my fan on, GOSH i'm so dumb. oh well. so i got up and then started getting ready for class at 11:15 downtown. i got ready and changed my outfit about 4 times because i didn't like anything. i think i was just in a bad mood. so i finally leveled with one outfit and then hopped on the bus pretty late. i got downtown at about 12:10 [i missed psychology if you haven't noticed.] yeahh so i got down there and kept trying to call joe amoro because i wanted to see if he was in class yet. so he called me back and said he would wait for me right outside of class. so i bought my FRUIT haha. i love that fruit stand. and then i headed to class. english was alright i guess. and then for the next english i had my conference, i think it went well...better than before i guess.
then i had my break before math. so i went outside, ate my fruit talked to joe on AIM, and then i called maria 2870970958743 times while she was in class, haha i wanted to bother her. so then i called her again and she went to the bathroom to talk to me, she was like "usually when someone hangs up on you after the 5th time that means i'm in class." haha i was cracking up. anyways we sat outside for awhile talked a whole lot, she got something to eat and then well i decided i'm going gonna go to math and she skipped her math class and we walked to urban outfitters. i LOVE LOVE LOVE that store, i wish that was my closet that store, i wanted to buy EVERYTHING. i looked at this really cute skirt and guess how much it was $88 beans. sheesh i don't have that kind of money. eh, maybe i'll hit mama up, haha. we'll see. so we were in that store for a while me and maria have all to much fun together, and i love her so much. after we left urban outfitters we asked some random lady where H&M was so she said 16th & chestnut so we headed there. we looked around ALOT maria tried on this really cute yellow shirt. and i MADE her buy it, because it was absolutely adorable. we left H&M [mind you the H&M downtown is a hell of alot better than the one in franklin mills & neshaminy] and then we were on our way back to school and decided we'd go into eternity fashions some of the purses they had were really cute and i have a purse fetish so of course i liked pretty much all of them. we tried on some funny hats, sheesh i wish i would of had my camera. then i tried on these pink dress shoes with a flower on the front and maria tried on these abominable snow man boots, hahaha they were the WORST EVER. they were high top snow boots but they had white fur all over them, they pretty much were hideous and she walked around the store dancing with them on. i think the indian lady gave her a dirty look, oh well GO BACK TO THE MOTHER LAND!
after our eventful time window shopping [well my window shopping] we headed back to school i caught the 43 on broad st. and she headed back for her psychology class. we're going to make this an every other week thing. haha because we can't miss too much school.
oh yeah and maria said that the bums that sit on the st. and look at her and call her pretty, and babe and all that jazz are her reassurance when she doesn't feel good that day. haha i was cracking up. and she doesn't like to look at st. lights and she decided to cross a st. just because joggers were, and so yeah we ended up sprinting across the st. and cars were beeeping at us, i was laughing so hard i drooled a bit.. whoops! when i got home my mom told me that she and i are going to go thrift store shopping tomorrow down K&A because i don't have class and she doesn't have work, how lovely of her<3
spoon out my heart<3
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| i hate you with everything in me
even though thats the best lie thats come out of my mouth yet
i can't believe you could so unbelievably stupid
my dirty looks and my remarks may be
the absolute worst way to flirt
but forgive me i haven't been single for almost
3 years so i really don't know how to act
i don't want to seem desperate for you
even though i am telling you now
I AM RIDICULOUSLY DESPERATE FOR YOU
i'd give anything for a 2nd chance
but i think you have done it this time
i think you made my mind up this time for sure
i can't believe you
and i also can't believe that last night in bed
i cried for you, but then i thought i hope you did get hurt
when you got beat up by that kid.
in all honesty, i don't want to see you hurt,
no nothing like that, i just want to let you be
i just wanna start over
with someone new, with someone who won't be
mislead by all my signals, and how you could be, is beyond me
because you know me better than anyone else in this world.
it's so funny how you can try and make me feel stupid
in front of all those people and then i'm the first one you
call when something goes wrong, because you know
i will always be there for you, regardless.
i don't mean to be an "asshole" i don't mean to
make you think i hate you
or that you presence makes me sick
because thats not the situation AT ALL.
i love when youre here no matter how long you stay for
i may not be the best person to show it as well
but i try
i've been hurt so much, i'm numb, and this is the only way
i know how to love
i know that i may have said some horrible things to you
about us being just a measly crush and how we know nothing of love
thats a lie, and you and i both know that.
i know we were meant for eachother, but i'm gonna leave you alone
and let you figure that on your own.
as long as it takes, and as sad as it sounds
i'll be right here always, waiting for you.
i love you with all my heart
joseph john michael cross jr.<3333 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| don't you love the smuts who think they're good friends with someone? and theyre really not and the people they think they're friends with talk shit about them behind their backs, but i wond't say anything i'll close my mouth. but dude you's are fucking annoying, give west chester a break, seriously.
get lives.
work on that first.... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| boys in tight pants
wearing tight shirts
their pelvic thrusts
their mic stand sex
they know just how we like it.
and look good while doing it.
hahhahahhhahahah
I LOVE YOU LAUREN!! | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| hahah wooo tonight was FRIGGIN' AWESOME. well actually it really just sucked a whole fucken lot. but i have to write down everything that happened in such detail it's insane, because my lovely best friend jill who goes to east stroudsberg for college keeps up with everyone else's lives back here through my journal, scary. haha i love you though nonetheless and of course i'll do it.
so i got ready to go to tom cole's house last night talked to joe before i went and he told me he was staying <3home<3 AWESOME. so i was really excited now to go to tom cole's because i knew he was gonna go, he told me to come over but i couldn't i didn't have a ride and tara was coming for me soon, so he said he was gonna walk to mike's house and then get a ride to tom's from mike. so when i got off the phone with him tara came for me and then we got maria, and then <3JILL<3 oh how i've missed her so much, she was so happy to see us that she ran down her front steps almost fell out the front door, it was histerical she got in the car and gave everyone of us a kiss and was completely out of breath we each had a story to tell her because she's missed so much, i wish she would just come home, i miss having jill there. so we're on our way to tom cole's house, this kid lives in somerton i think it was like southhampton and the blvd. yeahh so anyways, PRETTY DAMN FAR. we get there and joe, mike, tom cole, the lower moreland girls, some of tom's friends, and his tom's brother were all there drinking already so we all just sat around, me and joe flirted, i love him, and then we popped in some super troopers, FUNNY MOVIE. and then the girls decided to leave because they were going to a bar anyways, i still don't know how that went, i have to call one of them. but i stayed because i don't like going to the bar, and i also wanted to spend some time with joe for the time he was home. he kept singing that song to me messing around the senses fail song, choke on this... while i was on the phone he was pissing me off, haha he was cracking up though because he knows it bothers me, i know it's not really about me, but for some reason i don't know i always think thats what he means. then PAUL, AND JAY came.. i love them both BEST FRIENDS, seriously. paul was being so funny, he was making masks with papertowels, i took pictures of him, check em' out on my photobucket. anyways, me joe jay and paul were playing poker and joe's cell phone rings we were all passing the phone messing around with whoever it is, and then someone kept calling birds phone and we all kept passing it around too. haha. i picked the phone up when someone called birds phone and i was like "umm hello? who is this, this is jay's girlfriend.." and she BANGED ON ME, haha dumb slut. then i took more pictures and then mike came up and played with us. ashley sieger called and she wanted to come to tommy's her and katie ivers. so they came, and then me and joe started fighting mainly because i hate when he drinks, and when he does he can never show how much i mean to him when he's drunk he says things like "FUCK YOU" and other stuff... he's so fucking weird. so i decided the hell with this, i don't have a ride home from tom cole's i'm just gonna walk home because i was so upset with joe, and i started walking and got to the blvd. haha woo mind you there was ABSOLUTELY NO SIDEWALKS, PAVEMENT, NOTHING... haha so i sat on the bench that's for the bus and i called tara crying, and then i called joe and he was pissed that i left, and he said to walk off whatever i was mad at and come back to tom cole's, but dude that's like another half hour walk. URH. then i guess someone told katie to come and pick me up, so her ashley and mike pulled up beside me and then katie took me ALL THE WAY home, which was very nice of her, and i thanked her. when i got home i called joe and he was telling me to walk to his house to see him, i was like ARE YOU KIDDING ME? if i was allowed to sleep at his house i wouldve done it, but i wasn't and so i would have had to walk all the way back home, and we don't exactly live right around the corner from eachother,.. so i said no and just told him to get dropped off at my house because i wanted him to sleepover but he said katie wasn't gonna drive him there because she doesn't live anywhere near me, she lives on the way to joe's house. so i was upset, but i shouldn't of been with him, because i know it's not his fault. but eh i tend to do that ALOT. i miss him, and i want him to come over today before he goes back to school, and i wish he wasn't going back today, friggin' ALEX! haha i don't mean that, but i only said it because that's joe's only way back to school. i don't understand why his mom won't just take him back sunday night or something?? it makes no sense to me.
so i think i'm honestly not going to be able to see him today, which fucken sucks, but he's coming home all next weekend for the four day weekend, YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. well i have an english essay to do, and i need a shower, and no one's home so it's the best time to do all of that. mmm hmmm. YEAHH. so i better get going then. and P.S. I HOPE THIS IS GOOD FOR YOU JILLIAN! hahaha.<3
just think of this and me as just a few of the many things to lie around to clutter up your shelves<3
i love you so much, my heart could explode | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| tonight joe is coming home, but then leaving again. so eh
what the hell can i do?
NOTHING
and i don't care. he put this really mean song is his profile
by senses fail- choke on this.
and he was messing around saying it was for me, but that really hurt my feelings.
i got home from school and then took the bus to lauren's had dinner
and then her mom took me home,
now here i am, and tara just called and asked me if i wanted to go to tom cole's
with her tonight to drink with the boys. so i said yes
say yes say yes say yes say yes
haha i have to make fun of that because i see so many people use that now.
i'm gonna get a shower and then she's coming for me around 9:00.
so yeahh, i better get done dying my hair, later BITCHESSSS.
what a waste of my life, seriously. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| well movie night wasn't really movie night. it was talk about taking cocaine [sp?] and talking about a sex relationship without the sex, hmm...oh and me and maria made fun of tara alot, we do that best. and i did my homework there for the fat goblin. maria smoked ciggerate after ciggerate, I HATE HER FOR THAT.
I'M CUTTING AND DYING MY HAIR TOMORROW!!
i'm dying it back to my light blonde and then underneath is gonna be black.
mm hmm. and maria's doing it. YIKES! haha just kidding, i trust her.
well joey's calling me so i better go. goodnight. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| so today i woke up SICK AS A DOG. my throat is so swollen it's RIDICULOUS. i don't even have any tonsils for christ sake! RAWR! yeah anyways woke up late because i went to bed at 4 in the morning, mainly because when i got home from school i felt sick and then i took a nap from 7-11:00 insane, so i was up for a while. my mom was out for the day so i was home alone. then she helped me with my take home test because i'm a bum, haha. afterwards tara called and said she was coming for me because we were gonna go to champs restaurant and LANGHORN STEAK HOUSE, haha FUCK YOU JOE. i meant longhorn. then kimita needed to return something at strawbridges, and then i stopped in rite aid to get hair dye. woot! blonde, thank god.
then tara dropped me off and then kimmy, she's going to her grandmom's and then she's coming back and picking me and kim back up, after my damn shower, haha i feel so dirty! oh well. and we're renting scary movies, ordering food, and going back to tara's apartment and sitting in, maria's coming around 9ish. should be fun, i miss those girls<3 and it's the perfect night for scary movies, don't you agree?
i'll probably be home later on, i need to finish my take home test for english. CHAAA. tomorrow is school, how lovely even when i'm SO sick, this sucks. i don't want to go. and then joe's coming home, but we're not hanging out because i don't want to and then on saturday i'm going to a gay club with brad, lauren, and colleen, haha this should be interesting. GOSH!
well i have to make joe amoro his mix cd, because he wants to hear what kind of music i listen to, haha what a goof. so don't wait up for me... goodnight.<3 | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| so today in class some kid said to me
"you're a hardcore fuck, meet me in the pit"
i immediately started cracking up.
and he said "why are you so fucking hardcore?"
first off i don't dress hardcore if that makes any sense AT ALL
i just don't give off that impression i don't think.
but today i wore my glassjaw shirt.
maybe that's why?
i don't know that boy is so weird, and confuses me.
as i walking out of the class he screamed
"SEE YA HARDCORE BLONDIE!"
everyone just looked at me like.. ummm?
sometimes i wanna fucking karate kick him in the face
for the stupid things he says.
i don't even know the kid.
I'LL SHOW YOU HARDCORE... haha.
my friend brian just informed me that a static lullaby is coming soon?
i really hope so. i want to go and see them really bad.
anyways i'm going to buy the hilary duff cd.
haha how does hilary duff and a static lullaby mix?
i'll never know. but i love her. even though thats not my kind of music.
i still support her.
YEAHH. well i'm sick, and cold, and i wanna take a bubble bath.
JAHEEZE, i haven't had one of those in forever.
goodnight everyone. NO CLASSES TOMORROW! HOT DAMN!
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| | Current Music: | ATREYU- RIGHT SIDE OF THE BED | | Subject: | I KILL WITH THE PERFECT WEAPONS, CRYSTAL EYES, AND A HEART OF COAL..<3 | | Time: | 08:36 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/sleepy.gif) sleepy |
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| And I can see her now
Dancing around, her drink in hand
All her baggage in tow
I just want to forget and let go
Of all the joy, all of the pain
I took your guilt and placed it into me
And now I kiss it goodbye
Our last chance ended fatall
Who's sleeping on my side of the bed tonight?
Have you ever cried so hard?
Baby you just died
And there she goes again
Another masquerade in false circumstance
She'll fuck you just for the taste
I just wish I could replace all the memories
Of what makes my blood run cold
And as your blood flows through me
I say goodbye to what we had
She came and went
I gnawed through my lip
Makeup smeared in her eyes
Each sob's a reason to say goodbye.
Sometimes when you're holding on
You'll never see the light
With flowers in her hair
Gazed upon with dead lovers eyes
She never looked so good
And I never felt so right
I felt so wrong
well i have to go to WONDERFUL class now!
i don't want to but oh well.
i love atreyu and i have been singing this song all night,
and all morning. i'm really weird.
joey's coming home friday, i can't wait.
we had a heart to heart last night.
i mean it was good to know alot of things, and get alot of answers.
i was still very much upset though, i think i cried
majority of the time we were on the phone together.
the conversation wasn't bad, we didn't fight.
and we're still fine.
i love him to death, alright time for PSYCHOLOGY! woooo...<3 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| TODAY IS HILARY DUFF'S BIRTHDAY!!
just thought i should let you's all know that, haha.
P.S. SAM!! IT'S A CELEBRATION!! | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| so how about this for an update,
me and joe cross are at our best and i LOVE IT.
we haven't fought, nope not once, we talk everyday, for A WHILE TOO
he plays around with me, he said he's coming home this weekend, and friday
we're going to hang out, and he is MAYBE sleeping over.
i know that things are getting better, i just hope
that i don't do anything to screw it up.
like with my anxiety attacks, and my nervous break downs, haha.
I LOVE THIS KID MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF.
HE IS THE AIR THAT I BREATHE.
for him not to be in my life, i would just die. so for this being
the first step,i'll take it
he asked me what i was getting him for his birthday, PSSSHHHH....
bitch, nothing! haha i'm only kidding. i really don't know what i should get
him though yet, he wants a digital camera, but i think he was only kidding.
or i HOPE because those bad boys are expensive, and he still owes me mine!!
if you have any ideas on what i should get joey, or even if you don't know him
but know something that a boy would enjoy, LET ME KNOW. i don't want it to be anything
BIG, i just want it to be simple, but still mean ALOT.
he is also coming home for halloween
i am overly excited about that, because halloween is my favorite holiday.
and we're always together, it's sort of like our anniversary pt. 2 kinda deal.
only we're not together... :/
YEAHH.
i'm so behind on school work, it's not even funny.
i think i'm going to fail my english class because she's a fat goblin
and never knows when to quit. i love how joe amoro makes fun of her.
HAHA. she deserves it, seriously. but me and joe amoro are counting down the days
until winter break, haha how pathetic are we. BUT I NEED A BREAK!!
i'm going to the taking back sunday show
they're playing with atreyu right? or maybe it's someone else. i could be wrong.
but i love atreyu so if they're playing together, that'll make me smile.
oh and P.S. if mooney isn't going to the taking back sunday show because of brad
then me and lauren and DEFINITELY scalping his ticket and buying merchandise with
this SCALPED money. we're GREEEEEEEEEEET.
i think that i'm gonna go to senses fail with joey, because he wanted to go real bad.
and so maybe i'll do that for his birthday, that makes sense right?
i don't know. ya know whats the one thing i HATE about any kind of show.
is when you got the cute couples holding eachother, kissing while any hardcore band is playing.
i remember when me and joe were going out when we went to shows together we'd walk in
and be like "i'll meet you right here at this spot when it's over." HAHAHHAH
i stay in the pit, and joey always goes up front to be smooshed.soooo... we meet halfway.
anyways, i'm gonna go because i'm gonna try and get some more sleep.
and i'm tired because i have been helping joey study all week over the phone, haha
i'm the best, but yet i don't study MYSELF. errrrr..
REAL WORLD'S ON TONIGHT, the saga of the gay men
well i'll probably hit this up sometime later. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| i hate livejournal because my computer sucks.
and i'm never posting again.
goodbye livejournal world.<33
i'll miss you..
but until next time,
heather michelle alexandra | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Dear Heart,
I met a boy today. Be prepared to shatter.<3
i'm a fuck up.
sometimes i just want to know what the hell was i thinking at that moment.
and as for YOU.
you got what you wanted.
so the hell with me now right?
we'll just see how this is gonna work out.
i should fucken kill you.
it might not be that bad,
you were the best i'd ever had<3 | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| last night i really had fun.
i did.
i got home from school with lauren and took the bus to brad's house.
we sat around, made fun of lauren, as always.
then brad took me home because i had to be home by 5.
i got home showered, changed and then i was ready by 6.
my mom took me to jaybird's house.
i sat in the kitchen with sandy, sam, and matt.
watched some TV. and then sleeping beauty decided to wake up.
he ate, showered, and then we were off.
we got to tom cole's house around 8-8:30.
and it was just bird, tom cole, shauna, paul, tommy d, steve hub, and i.
we started to drink when joe, mike, jack, and dan showed up.
me and joe were good all night.
i didn't think i was too much of a tease, but i guess so.
i stopped drinking because well i was getting a headache, and i refuse to get sick anymore.
me and joe had some good talks. i was pleased.
i took some pictures, not many because i always feel like a pest when i'm like "PICTURE!"
haha. asja and cait came, i was very happy about that.
me and joe fist fought out back a.k.a. WE RAN AROUND LOOKING STUPID OUT BACK.
mike was screaming at joe "IF YOU HIT HER YOU'RE GOING OVER THE FENCE!"
i know he wasn't going to hit me, it was a joke. but mike was drunk and didn't know.
then joe and mike started wrestling, and crushed me into the table out back.
shauna laughed, but i got hurt. thank goodness i was a bit buzzed.
greg sang butterfly kisses to me when i was sitting in the living room
and jay riggler was cracking up.
and then me and greg decided he was going to drive me to the subway everyday
because we both go to CCP downtown and we both go mon., wed., and fri.
and we both have an 11:15 class, AWESOME.
there was alot more people there then i initially named but you get the idea.
the night was fun, and it was wonderful to have seen tommy d again :]
NICOLE LET ME DOWN, but i still love her.
me and joe did sleep together, i'm not going to write exactly everything that happened.
but it was nice, and well deserving.
we still love eachother, sheesh give us a break. it's only natural.
OH AND
jaybird i love you.
if you ever need to talk to me, i'm only a phone call away.
you're my sister. :]
in the morning brian black drove joe, mike, and me home.
very nice boy.
i came home and i was SO tired i went to bed till well NOW.
what a bum.
but i did not sleep AT ALL last night if you know what i mean. HAHAH woooo.
i miss joe.
but i'm not doing this to myself.
jaybird's dad is really mad at me. he told me he had a bet on me and joe
that we were going to be the first to be married. and he told me well i still have time
to make him proud. i hope i hold true to this bet. but i can't promise anything.
although i'll cross my fingers. (BLAH, i do that alot and never any hope)
but just incase you were wondering the bet was between jay, paul, and sam and it was 5$ HAHAH
THAT'S ALL I'M WORTH?!
goodnight everyone, YEAHH. you guessed right, back to bed! | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | GIN BLOSSOMS- HEY JEALOUSY | | Time: | 11:32 pm |
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| P.S.;
I'M MORE HARDCORE THAN YOU!!!!!!!
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAA | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| umm.
kegger.
tomorrow night.
tom coles.
everyone is gonna be there.
and my love nicole better show.
i'm gonna call and stalk her.
BEST BELIEVE.
joe thinks i'll be talking to him.
HAHAH.
he better think again.
afterschool tomorrow i am going over birds house.
because me and bird are making a grand appearance at tom cole's house tomorrow together.
and it's going to be lovely.
oh jaheeze, if only he knew the way i talked about him.
umm.
maybe.
i will.
ask him to attend the party with me and bird.
he'll probably say no, because JOE CROSS is scary
last night on the phone
he got really quiet and in this creepy baby voice went
"i'm gonna kill them, i'll kill them all, you'll see"
yeah sooo...
and he told me he was going to kill hiself.
but he's a liar.
PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME GO TO SCHOOL!
i have to go over lauren's house bright and early tomorrow to pick me LOVELY bag up.
you'll see it tomorrow if you're attending the kegger at tommy cole's house.
i'll be taking LOADS of pictures.
i think i'm going to turn into fred with the whole photobucket frenzy. :]
i love derf though.
BE
THERE
OR
BE
SQUARE
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| HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
I'M SUCH A JOKE! | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| i LOVE my friends, HAHA brad and lauren said this is their song to me from them about JOE CROSS. i think it's very funny, and cute of them. i'm not a real big fan of the starting line, but heres the song anyway.
So it's safe to say that we've been here before;
Heart torn out, down for the count and still come back for more.
This lesson is learned too well.
Though, only unlearned by the time your wounds have healed.
Have you had enough?
I guess not because your lips are stuck to his.
It's Time to say enough is enough, you would be so better off.
You love him but tough because it's not coming back from him.
You can't win.
Stop expecting change, he's just a lost cause that you're waiting on.
Take a look around, you could have anyone.
So leave undeserving him.
It only hurts at first.
But then you will find someone to give you everything you want.
Try not to go running back to him.
So it goes unsaid that we've been here before.
Lonely nights and endless fights and sleeping on the floor.
And he's sorry, so the story goes.
It's read and replayed and ends the same way
Stop expecting change, he's just a lost cause that you're waiting on.
Take a look around, you could have anyone.
So leave undeserving him.
Stop expecting change, he's just a lost cause that you're waiting on.
Take a look around, you could have anyone.
So leave undeserving him. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| ok so i was on the phone tonight with JOE CROSS for oh say
2 HOURS
and we laughed, loved eachother, joked around, he told me
he didn't hate me, that he loves me and misses me.
he said i dress all types of sexy now since i'm not with him.
and that gets him mad, and jealous.
he's also very jealous of joe. eek.
joe's coming home from school tomorrow, and we're hanging out allll day.<3
sometimes he's the center of my world, other times i wanna ring his neck.
i'll never win.
but hey i'm happy.
i know this may be the wrong thing to do, but i'm not throwing myself at him.
he's told me he knows i've changed, he can tell from pictures,
my attitude on the phone. so thats a good thing that he's realized all of this.
when we were getting off the phone he said "i love you" and hung up. awww jeez.
let me not get myself worked up though. i don't wanna set myself up anymore.
this should just test me to see if i'm really over him or not.
well goodnight world. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| today i had school.
i took the el to meet lauren, then we hopped back on to get off at
margaret orthodox and then went to my house, ordered some food.
watched 7th heaven. STUPID WALTER.
then we went over brad's house so lauren could dye his hair.
he wants me, he's not gay. REALLY.
we're gonna do it, we both like it in the butt. HAHHAAH
so uncalled for. oh well.
i harrassed marie for a tampon but i didn't want to make it obvious.
but lauren and brad did "HEATHER STAY AT HOME AND USE ALL THE FREAKIN'TAMPONS!"
i fuckin'hate you. haha cuz dougie really needed to hear that!
tomorrow my mom's taking me to the gap to get a flowered messanger bag.<3
i LOVE my mom so much, it's not even funny dude.
she's like my best friend anymore, i always call her at work, she
cracks up, she's so silly.
if and when i do transfer to abington nursing i'm gonna miss joe :/
hopefully he'll come and hang out with me
TOMMY D I LOVE YOU!
you best throw that kegger for tara's bday CHUMP!
perhaps, i shall ask joe to come
that'll be wonderful if he does.
I DONT MISS JOE CROSS! hahaha. I LOVE MYSELF!
keep up the good work heather!
it started when we were younger you were mine<3 | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | POISON THE WELL | | Time: | 11:35 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/bitchy.gif) EAT SHIT AND DIE..YEAHH |
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| sorry about the picture i actually wanted to make a post about it but i was late for real world philly, so i thought i would put one picture just to see what everyone thought of the hair. because i dyed it ONCE AGAIN. this time i dyed it blonde, but i was so excited because i thought OH JOY back to my old blonde, and then it just came out with white highlights. i like it though nonetheless. and i think i'll keep it like this for a while longer until my cheap ass can come up with some money to buy more dye. i'll probably just end up stealing it, cuz i'm a bad ass like dat yo.
heres some pictures of da hurrrr....
i need to get to bed, school BRIGHT AND EARLY. kill me now.
( im gone and im never coming back again ) | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | A STATIC LULLABY- WE GO TO ELEVEN | | Subject: | i'll never sleep again | | Time: | 03:54 pm |
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| my hair is silky and smoooooth.
oh hair, i love you.
lauren when you rent mean girls bring it to my house so i can watch it PRONTO! even though i HATE lindsay lohan. ;]
um get this
TOMMY D COMES HOME TOMORROW!
YAY!
i missed tommy so much.
i sure hope i get to see him<3
it's sad that since he's been gone, everything is all wrong.
i'm not sure that that may be so true, but i'd like to think so.
so maybe tommy being home for a bit is a good thing.
i'll cross my fingers.
<3a static lullaby<3
i fall asleep to you, everynight. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
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| | um.. i'm so going to kill you. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| if you read my journal thats not my fault.
whatever you may had read was blown out of proportion.
and i would have been the same way.
so i'll apologize for that.
just know it doesn't mean anything.
so don't worry.
SHOPPING MAKES ME HAPPY.
thanks mommy
oh lordy pathetic boys
go write a song about it, and cry for me.
CHAAAAA. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| ZoumBaT622: come on jerk come over pop some meds and youll feel better and me paul and tom will cheer you up and we got teddys
i swear to god i love you boys.
thank you for everything.
i would've never thought that throughout
all of this, you's would stand by me.
you have definitely proved me wrong.
this whole situation sucks really bad
for me, and for you's also.
i understand.
i hope things get better, i'm crossing my fingers.
but i love you's.
kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss | | comments: 11 comments or Leave a comment |
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| | and i think we grew up past the hang ups and the evil stares the fuck you toos and i don't cares | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/frustrated.gif){kind=small}
frustrated![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/determined.gif){kind=small}
determined![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/geeky.gif){kind=small}
geeky![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/pissed.gif){kind=small}
pissed off![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/confused.gif){kind=small}
confused![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/cold.gif){kind=small}
cold![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/dirty.gif){kind=small}
dirty![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/tired.gif){kind=small}
tired![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/infuriated.gif){kind=small}
I'LL KILL YOU<3![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/aggravated.gif){kind=small}
DON'T BE SO DIFFICULT!![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/excited.gif){kind=small}
THIS IS TO GETTING FERKED UP!
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happy